to blog or not to? anonymity vs. telling you about me

Is it writer’s block? Or is it too many choices for blogging and baaad internet access in the mountains of California? I am currently petitioning to get DSL where I live and hoping to not lose phone, internet and electricity again during these snow flurried days. I love the 1/2 mile hike to the car, if I can even drive it on the public street, right now my 2 wheel drive is stuck under 3 feet of snow. If I go anywhere besides the white beauty blusters, I hitch. Like I told my Californian childhood friend today, all the trees around my house look like that toxic spray on snow for Xmas trees that we begged our parents to spray. I’m not from the snow country originally, I guess I am now. Ooh, feel the wind through the double paned windows…. As for the satellite, I may lose it, candlelight is nice. If you are employed or inspired by the abundance of the internet — do not choose to live in a place that doesn’t have high speed internet access. Unless you have relentless patience and nothing else to do of course. I still haven’t decided what exactly this blog is for. My grandmother died in July, I promised to write for her. This blog is named after her, which is my middle name. I like the idea of anonymity and writing to an audience that doesn’t really know me except through my words, pictures, media and whatever else. Back in the early days of World Wide Web hype – 1994-1996, I had a great blog, I was even able to change the color and pictures, that’s because that’s what I wanted our programmer to allow for The Village Group’s MyOwnHome web profile, web forums, web mail, chat and more. I even had a java fractal at one point as my profile picture….. People responded to my blog, what an amazing experience that was!! I had different categories of inspiration, I was a philosophy student, and no one I met online knew me in person. That felt like freedom to be me. In those days, when I was real young, I dreamed of the day that is here now, when laptops, PDAs and wireless would be the norm, where we’d be able to travel the world and communicate globally with each other, back to family and friends and share the news we loved to share. This is the time. We have the ability, but the infrastructure still lacks. I want it to be easier to put it all together, I want to be more presentable, I don’t want a million passwords and a million blogs. I want one central space that I control everything from. I want my internet vehicle that I pilot through this web of information and collect what I like as I go. I want to know the sources of this information, as I know who I want to trust and who I don’t want to trust. I don’t want to be followed or baited with sexy buttox clothing that just isn’t my color and may as well be porno for the guy visiting my blog. I want to write and not feel like someone is mining my words or using my thoughts for their proposals, I want intellectual property rights and degrees of sharing. If you are a friend + association, I may reveal pictures and thoughts, if you sign a non-disclosure I may share my novel or my specifications, if you are an employer, I’m not going to show you my hoolahooping pictures, nor do I want you to know when I’m connecting with a friend on my Tribe blog. So what to do? Have an anonymous blog with someone else’s cool design? Or actually work on this one? Bring it over to my own domain and not delete any of these message? Or start a new blog for each of my personality expressions and try to draw the line between each posting and my thought process? Egads, that sounds like it will just hold me back for another 5 years. Can you just promise to read postings that are categorized for your relation with me as opposed to others? Probably not.